So, this is hard.

This whole moving deal has turned out not so great thus far, although I'm hoping it'll turn out better soon. Actually, I don't have enough energy to hope right now because I've had to continuously walk/bike across this freaking giant campus. I have never felt so out of shape in my life. Also, the bike keeps scratching my legs so I've left amounts of my DNA in blood samples all over State campus.
I've found living alone to be okay but depressing because I'm so far away from everything. I really like having my own place - I just hate that it's not on campus. It also sucks not really having many friends. Will's been doing his own stuff, which is completely reasonable because he should be doing his own thing, except that it hasn't even really felt like we're dating. I've been really pissy and really upset and really self-conscious and jealous, all of which I really hate being. Also, I just had my first Spanish 202 class, and I feel so completely out of my league. I mean, there are some completely idiotic people in that class, so I know I'm not the least intelligent in the class (one girl leaned over to me and asked "So, what's 'do' in Spanish? Like 'Do you know where the bathroom is?'" and when I said that the Spanish don't say "do", it blew her mind. This is Spanish 202!). But I was messing up preterite forms and not reading things correctly, and it just felt awful. Speaking Spanish fluently is heavily incorporated in my being a Spanish teacher.
I guess I just feel really down. But I've felt down since I got here, and even when I was a little happy, it wasn't nearly the happiness that I felt at SMCM with my friends, just hanging out and playing video games and joking around. And I do just want to hang out and do homework and play video games, but I have no friends to do it with (Will doesn't like not doing anything).
The moral of the story is that this is a lot harder than I was hoping it'd be. The end.

Update: So Adam (Will's roommate) just came back and hung out with me for a little and made me feel a little better, so I don't feel like life completely sucks anymore. But I do still miss my SMCM crew so badly it kind of hurts right above where I think my stomach is.