Regret

I've never actually regretted a decision so much in my life. I think that moving down to Raleigh might be one of my biggest regrets of my whole life. And now I have to get up and go to class instead of laying around and playing video games and going kayaking with the people that I love so much and who actually, genuinely love me back.
This is going to be such a hard freaking year. But I guess I'll reason with myself - if I don't go to class and get the best grades I possibly can, then I should just drop out and live with the Brothers C, which isn't exactly going to get me back into SMCM next year... so I should get out of bed and go to class.
I just wish I could turn back time with the knowledge I have now - that Will wasn't worth this move at all, that y'all make me feel like I'm the best person I could be, and that the feeling of amazing relief every time I turn the bend around the river at St. Mary's means that SMCM is truly my home and I should never leave it.
I love you guys. Sorry for the depressing post, but it was written by a pretty depressed person.

EDIT: Although I'm still really sad, I feel a little better because I've already started planning my next trip up to SMCM, so it gives me something to look forward to.