Life is just going insanely for me right now. E-mailing people, calling people, my mom constantly calling or texting me with "new game plans" for my future - it's a lot for a girl to handle. I'm supposed to set up an appointment with the woman in charge of SMCM housing so that we can talk about whether or not I'm allowed to sign up for a room for next year or something, and I have to go to advising for classes tomorrow. It's just frustrating not knowing what my future holds. Will knows he's going to NCSU with or without me. My friends here know that they're going to still be here with or without me.
(Side note: somebody needs to tell Julie about Carlo because she's going to flip a shit when she finds out, yet she's going to get so mad at everyone - especially Brad - that I don't know if it's our place to tell her)
It's just hard not knowing anything about my future right now, and all of this gets me into really dark and depressing territory, like summer territory which is no good because then I just don't leave my room and I'm sad all of the time. I don't like being sad all of the time.
But I've got to think optimistically. I'll get this U of Phoenix online credit, and my transcripts will get in on time, and NCSU will accept me, and besides - no matter what, I'm done rooming with Nique in six-weeks' time. Thank Jesus Almighty. I've come too close to strangling her recently.
G'night, world. G'night, friends. I hope tomorrow brings a sunnier, less terrible day.
I'm planning on telling Julie next time I hang out alone with her-- because I'm not supposed to know either and I feel bad that I haven't told her yet.
ReplyDeleteoh this is cool.
ReplyDeletefunny thing is I was just sad :( and I didn't know that I was the last to know...haha
but not mad! <3
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